Leave it better

I am beyond thankful that neither God nor the devil seems to want me just yet. I still have so much to do and I’d like to leave things better than I found them before torturing souls with my wit for all eternity. I could certainly use more time to work on my bit.

This morning’s commute took a sharp turn from the expected when the car began to shake a little. I held tightly to steady what felt like the car being buffeted by a strong wind but the steering wheel stopped working with my wheels and the car began to violently swerve from left to right with a mind of its own, across lanes of fast moving early morning traffic.

The car swerved so violently that I found myself and the car spinning crazily in circles, around and around through swerving cars all the way from the right lane to the left lane and back to the right lane with three blown apart tires, finally coming to a stop at the top of an on ramp.

More terrifying cars at high speeds coming at me, desperately careening around my car. I felt panic wrapping my chest, my entire body contracted in anticipation of an impact that miraculously didn’t come. The power cut out entirely and I sat crying and trying to breathe.

Police arrived almost on top of me and set up a safe barrier from other cars until an emergency tow truck could get to us. My husband doubled back from his own commute to tuck me safely into his truck and bring me home where after being deposited into bed and piled with dogs and warm blankets I slept for the rest of the day.

I have no idea what happened. What could have caused so much to go so wrong and to be able to walk away from that scene. For everyone on the road this morning to have been able to pass by unhurt. I only know that I am grateful. Shaken and weary but deeply grateful. I’m doubling down and rolling up my sleeves to pay it forward and make sure that when it is my time to drive the afterlife closertocrazy, I will have left this one better somehow, some way.

#payitforward

#secondchances

#amazinggrace

#leaveitbetter

#blessed