Seeking balance 

Seeking balance

Each day begins much the same. I crawl from my soft nest of warm blankets and my darkened room, and head downstairs in the direction of my children’s voices. It is almost too bright, energetic and already in full swing, the children ready (some reluctantly so) to join friends and take on the world. I shuffle sleepily out to feed the chickens and goats already calling to me, already up and out at first light. As much as I long to linger back in my bed, there are things to be done, places to go, and so I pick up my pace and add my own footsteps to the race. Children are dropped at school, emails have been attended to, and I even managed to duck in for early Mass. Now I sit criss cross apple sauce, perched on top of my yoga ball at my desk (praying I will not fall off the ball….on soooo many levels), an apple scented candle lit near me. I close my eyes and breathe…..I let the stillness and solitude settle in me. My first cup of morning coffee promises seductively to start my heart, enervate my body, bring clarity to my foggy mind and balance. This seems an insurmountable task for a simple cup of coffee. I should probably have 20 or 30 more ounces to be sure. I’ll be bulletproof by the time I hit 60 ounces and my skin will feel electric. I’ll have wobbled and fallen off my ball too many times to count before this day is through. I’ll have hit my head against the same walls too. But I am determined to seek and master this elusive skill and so I will keep getting up, keep climbing back on the ball, forever seeking balance. Namaste my friends, and by the way, if it’s not too much trouble, can anyone tell me my name? 🙏😜

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2 thoughts on “Seeking balance ”

  1. I love you so much it actually hurts! I ache when we are forced to be apart, I feel pain when you are hurting! I also rejoice in your happiness, feel warmth even in your gaze, and elation when glimpsed by your smile!!!


    Dale Rawlinson Operations Manager Worcester/Auburn Branch American Alarm and Communications Inc. 508-453-2728 Lic. 1212C MA


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  2. Ah, you are your Father’s daughter! Oh, and your sister’s sister! We all need a way to ‘jump-start’ our days and a cup of joe is often the way to go! And as for that ‘apple sauce cross legged’ position on your yoga ball – I beg you to please wear a helmet! Oh, and knee and elbow pads, not to mention a … ah fagetaboudit! Now, where did I put those coffee beans and my jar of Nutella! ❤

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