The good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful. I love my body, warts and all. For the record, I don’t actually have any warts unless you count the time I had plantar warts on my feet that I refused to see a doctor for and instead dug them out myself using a crudely made homeopathic method of applying clear nail polish, letting it dry, and then cutting it off. No, Mensa will not be banging down my door any time soon for membership dues. It’s a testament to both my ingenuity and my stubbornness that I managed to succeed. My method took a while and was perhaps not one I would recommend to any sane human being, but I survived myself. I survive myself all the time. For over a decade my body and I have had a rather dubious relationship, consisting in a series of trial and error attempts to overcome lapses in both judgment and reliability. I have lovely stretches of time, months even, when I can almost fly. I run every chance I get, miles and miles, happy and free of too much pain, my feet working well, my legs nice and strong, my spine in compliance and pain at a nice, low level. I am bullet proof during these glorious months. And then there are the downward slopes, the never convenient periods where no matter how hard I try, how good I am to myself, my feet start to fumble, my legs lose their accuracy and fatigue accompanies me where ever I go and I’m back to square one.
I am blessed. I am well loved. I am as stubborn as hell, my humor as irreverent as it is possible to be and still have the keys to my office at work (I work for a church…), and a long view I appreciate from the perspective the challenges of others has afforded me, all of which serve to keep my spirits high, and my determination mighty. Two weeks ago I was so happy just to be able to go for a walk.
My legs were not cooperating, my spine was on fire and the medications and steroids were slowly beginning to coax my body towards being more of a team player. Every day that I could, I walked, until I could run again. So today feels like Christmas to me because while it may not last long, today I could run like the wind. ❤️